Sorry I haven't been around.

Those "personal issues" I mentioned have finally caught up to me.

I wish I could say "my boyfriend broke up with me". I would be happier with that. Instead I have to say "my boyfriend apparently forgot I existed, and ignored me when I tried to talk to him about it". I guess we're not officially broken up, but he snubbed me on the way out of school today, and walked away when I asked him to wait. That's pretty "broken up" to me.

I'm very upset right now. I have been upset for the past week. I'm going to be more upset in the future. I don't know when I won't be upset anymore. This whole situation has hurt me very badly. I don't know what I did to suddenly make him lose interest in me or want to end it this way. It's making me feel very poorly of myself, even though I know it shouldn't. I've gone from feeling sad, to feeling angry, to feeling sad and angry, to feeling said, angry, confused and some other really lousy emotions I can't name.

I really can't believe he's acting this way. He was the sweetest guy not 3 months ago. He's been my very good friend for 5 years. We were exclusively dating for nearly 7 months. If he didn't want to be with me anymore, why didn't he say so? Why did he make me have to analyze my own break up? I would still be upset, but at least then I would be 100% sure of what's going on. I knew he was lazy, but I didn't think he was so lazy that he'd rather hurt my feelings than just man up and talk to me about what he was thinking.

I just want you guys to know what's going on, in case I get too upset to be around regularly. I've been up and down lately. Hopefully this will all go away soon.